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So.

Life is kind of emotionally fraught on certain fronts at the moment. Missed two classes in a row for a certain subject and have a presentation coming up next week that I still haven't picked a topic for, let alone researched/rehearsed.

Father is leaving at 2AM in the morning for the airport and then I get three blissful weeks to myself, just me and my puppy.

TV Tropes: Fanfic Recommendations is liable to get me sucked into new fandoms, given that I am perfectly happy reading fics like they're original fic and then going all, "Okay, I need to know more about these characters in order to properly appreciate how awesome this is, LET'S GO FIND SOURCE MATERIAL".

Gmail's offering free phone calls to the US from anywhere in the US and that's got me talking on the phone with Willow for hours and hours on end. Apparently I really miss phone conversations; I used to talk for hours on the phone in America, I remember, until my phone ran out of battery.

Strawberries + melted dark chocolate is my new comfort food. My puppy continues to be ridiculously adorable. I'm about to spam you all with my attempts to organize all the fic I've been writing recently (one per day, more or less).

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keep fighting, always

Title: Masochism Tango
Characters: Aleksei Volkov, Ivan Lukyanov
Prompt: Violence
Word Count: 1, 064
Summary: Hearts need blood to beat and Aleks needs Lukyanov. Warnings for graphic violence/masochism tango-style relationship.

Read more... )

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BIRTHDAY PRESENT FOR DANI.

DANI DANI DANI DANI DANI DANI!

LOOK. THERE IS A GIFT UNDER THE CUT FOR YOU FROM SAVIOR AND MYSELF. WE BOTH WORKED ON IT TOGETHER.

Love it and feel loved and appreciate it. ♥

Joint gift from Savior and self! )

I'm posting it in my journal and on dA as well so you can fav it if you want, but just 'cause it's posted in my journal doesn't mean that I did more work on it than Savior. It's roughly half-half, just that you tend to reply to my posts faster than his, so I'm sticking up here.

FEEL LOVED BY BOTH OF US. ♥!

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bingo card progress so far

Wild Mass Guessing as to fandoms can ensue! )

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kakjsdajsdjasd PEOPLE, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!

You know what makes a great setting for an 80K+ plus fic about two guys getting it on?

Haiti, post-earthquake!

In the author's own words:

When I signed up for Big Bang back in January, I had a completely different story in mind. An SPN gen story, in fact. That idea languished inside my head for a few weeks until I finally gave up trying to force it and moved on. Then the idea of a different J2 AU fic popped into my head, but again, it didn't go anywhere. Then it occurred to me: Why not use current events as the setting? The Haiti earthquake was still in the news and the more I saw about it, the more I wanted to use it until it seemed like the best idea ever. (That, of course, is only my opinion.


Right then. Watching the news unfold exactly how much of a disaster it was, seeing people displaced and orphaned and dead? Oh man, that totally makes me want to write fic about it! That was my first reaction to the tsunami as well! And Chile! There is nothing like watching other people suffer to wake up my fic muses.

Not.

I'm Sri Lankan and if someone had decided to use my country for a fic setting, post-tsunami, I would be so furious that this entry would consist of a string of swearwords and a link to the story. I was terrified back then for the safety of my family; I don't think that you'd need to look all that far to find people on livejournal or dreamwidth who would've been in the same situation for Haiti.

Or, to put it differently -- while a fair chunk of fandom threw its weight behind [info]help_haiti, this person was thinking about what a great setting it would make for the epic love of Jensen and Jared of Supernatural.

[info]glossing has kindly extracted a lot of the most troublesome parts of the fic, the SPN Anon Meme has a good rundown of why it's problematic and I love this post for explaining how the magic of intending no harm makes everything better.

In conclusion? This fic was over 80,000 words long. It had betas. It had an artist working on it. There were mods who approved it. And apparently nobody thought that setting it in post-earthquake Haiti would be a racist, classist, paternatlistic act of privilege.

Wonderful.

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it's not Christmas but it's my birthday in a month -2 days

What I Want For Christmas by Nicole Blackman

I want to know how it will end.
I want to be sure of what it will cost.
I want to strangle the stars for all they promised me.
I want you to call me on your drug phone.
I want to keep you alive so there is always the possibility of murder later.
I want to be there when you learn the cost of desire.
I want you to understand that my malevolence is just a way to win.
I want the name of the ruiner.
I want matches in case I have to suddenly burn.
I want you to know that being kind is overrated.
I want to measure how much torture we can stand.
I want to know where your altruism went.
I want to watch you lose control.
I want to watch you lose.
I want to know exactly what it's going to take.
I want to see you insert yourself into glory.
I want your touches to scar me so I'll know where you've been.
I want you to watch when I go down in flames.
I want to crush the thing that you love just so you know I can.
I want a list of atrocities in your name.
I want to work both sides of the fence.
I want to have two cats so when one dies one will eat the other and nothing will be wasted.
I want to reach my hand into the dark and feel what reaches back.
I want you to turn tender when you have the time.
I want to remember when my nightmares were clearer.
I want to be there when your hot black rage rips wide open.
I want to find a way for you to survive all of this.
I want to taste my own kind.
I want America to be socialized around creation instead of fear.
I want to meet your host virus.
I want to charm your sleep captain.
I want everyone to see your tiara break.
I want to be wrapped in cold wet sheets to see if it's different on the other side.
I want you to play it to me over the phone.
I want you to make a scorching debut.
I want you to come on strong.
I want the television left on so I can sleep.
I want to crunch numbers.
I want you to write your life story and leave me out of it.
I want to write my secret across your sky.
I want to keep you in the dark.
I want to leave you out in the cold.
I want to voice my concerns.
I want the exact same thing but different.
I want some soft drugs, some soft soft drugs.
I want to throw you.
I want to know if I'll ever be safe in the dark.
I want to decide who next year's dead rock stars will be.
I want you to know I know.
I want to speak hot metal fluently.
I want to know why you're starting to look like the last one.
I want just enough rope to hang you.
I want to hurt myself before you do, because I can do it better.
I want to coax the keys from your hand.
I want to throttle the bottle blonde because I know what she did.
I want to know if you read me.
I want to swing with my eyes shut and see what I hit.
I want to silver your hands.
I want to know just how much you hate me so I can predict what you'll do.
I want you to know the wounds are self-inflicted.
I want a controlling interest.
I want to be somewhere beautiful when I die.
I want to be your secret hater.
I want to stop destroying you but I can't.
I want and I want and I want and I will always be hungry.

Backstory. )

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17

sleep, baby, sleep
I'll bury you six deep

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16

stay out of my fantasies, please
they don't have room for you
and world domination both

and of the two
I'd rather rule the world
you just don't look as good
when I put you to the fire
and the sword

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15

you don't love me
you don't love me
you don't love me
you don't love me

if I say it enough times
maybe I'll remember it

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14

when you create the perfect man
you don't expect him to run off
with the perfect woman

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13

everyone says that you're like a rainbow
colorful and brilliant and rare
that I should enjoy you while you last
and not try to find where your end lies (where your lies end)

the problem is I'm colorblind
and your lies don't dazzle me

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12

I don't want the world to end
before I tell you I love you

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11

there was going to be a poem here but my puppy ate it

this is performance art

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10

you're wrong about me
but you never believe me
when I tell you that

and the sad part is
you argue better than me
so I'm beginning to believe
that I'm wrong about me too

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9

fuzzles and fur
and nuzzles and purr

and in conclusion: KITTEN SOUP

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8

this love is not a lie

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3

winning is easy but the problem is
what do you do afterwards?

trophies collect dust on the shelf
you drink from the skulls of your enemies

pureed brain has a flavor all its own

the cats love it.

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2

I crave the normalcy that your skin promises
everything will just be okay if you kiss me

one more time

In your eyes, cities rise
the future is too bright to face

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1

You said you'd make me better.

You made me quiche instead.

It was tasty.

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hurt/comfort bingo card

Huh. Some of these are more my friends' styles. BUT I WILL DO THEM ALL. )

Because clearly, when you haven't written fanfic for a while, the trick to starting up again is to sign up for a challenge. I can't believe that I got "sex pollen", though, that's a DC staple that I've always tried to avoid. And "slaves (sexual)" is a friend's kink. Though I can definitely handle some of those easily since I'm allowed to jump around fandoms.

Comm is Hurt/Comfort Bingo, if anyone wants to join in!

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Puppy picspam II!

Puppy love! Now at a convenient viewing size.

I have a new little baby Maltese puppy. Got him last, last Thursday, so he's two months and two weeks old, starting tomorrow. His name is Nova Star, the Ninja Plasm.

Prepare to be spammed by photos of him! Click the cut if you think you can face the extreme cuteness.

There once was a puppy named Nova/he liked to frolic in clover/but the clover was tall/and he was so small/a lawnmower ran him over. )

For more photos of him, go here!

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pix plz!

I have a longterm plan to inundate the world with puppy pictures.

This is but Step One.

Adorable white ball of fluff-- GAH THESE ARE HUGE AND WILL KILL YOUR BANDWIDTH. Uh. Will resize later. )

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Also!

For ultra-cheap drabbles and coloring, check me out here. Still dedicated to Haiti, of course.

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Okay, so, I know I said I wouldn't do this but:

Go here if you want to commission my coloring skills (seriously cheap, guys), or here if you want to bid on my writing skills.

I'll write/draw pretty much anything, and anything you offer goes straight to charities dedicated to helping Haiti.

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Icon dump!

Text Only x 28
Galactik Football x 14
Dragon Age: Origins x 11
Misc x 9
Total: 62




(Is there something in your tent that needs... assassinating?)

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2 years.

My sister's been dead two years today.

This is not what the icon-maker had in mind when she made this, but it's true for my sister -- she died at age 18, two days before her 19th birthday. She's never going to grow up.

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I believe in a thing called love!

Photo-essay-ish thing, inspired by RP from last night. Not triggery! )

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20 (not a poem!)

I realized why I love Cold Case so much: There is always a happy ending that's never a saccharine one.

Law and Order: SVU doesn't get my devotion in the same way because sometimes, the bad guys get away. Too often, in fact. Or they fail to make their case.

Cold Case? There has only been ONE ep where the bad guy got away with it and even then, he got grabbed later on in the season. They don't cover the court case. I don't know what sentences they get or if they're even found guilty. But that's not the point. The point is that Cold Case always ends with a montage of the guilty person being cuffed and taken away while you see what happened to the other characters in the story.

There is always justice. The good guys always win.

...And right at the end, you see the victim as a ghost. One of the cops sees her or a family member but the point is, the victim is there and got justice and knows it. Even after death, there's that justice there.

I think, sometimes, that my love of Cold Case is really that simple.

The good guys win but it's not about them. It's about the victim.

So every ending is bittersweet because even as you see the bad guy get hauled away, you see the victim too. You don't get to be pleased that the good guys won, it's not as simple as cheering on a sports team. It isn't about the victory of the righteous; it's about the fact that someone is dead and the person responsible for that death has been caught.

Cold Case, more than any other show I know, is about justice and consistently shows justice triumphing while the heart of the show is the people on whose behalf justice fights.

Imagine a superhero comic where the focus wasn't the superhero but the people he helped. If every comic didn't feature something in the superhero's line but instead focused entirely on a character's life and the superhero was just maybe a page or two in the whole issue.

Like that. Cold Case is like that for me.

Justice for everyone. Everyone. The bad and the good alike, their deaths are all investigated and solved.

Good always wins but that doesn't bring back the dead.

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pay no attention to this

Backstory: Following exchange stems from a comment this post on race and colorblindness. The first comment is the comment I responded to, and then I got a PM that I tried to reply to, only to find that PMs couldn't be sent to her. Ergo, posting my response here for her to read.

Juliet_Winters:

Christianity seems to be the best practical system I've seen for drawing disparate peoples together. The desire for revenge is or should be set aside in the name of God. Yes, yes, there are many counter examples, but that's the way it's supposed to play out and that's the way I've seen it play out.


Me:
Of course! Christianity, not Islam or Buddhism or Judaism or any of the other religions around!

I mean, Buddhism, which has never had a single war fought in its name and explicitly forbids the sort of crazy-ass conversion where Christians invade other countries and tear down the temples/mosques of those countries is totally not a better choice.

Personally, I'm an atheist. Not a Buddhist. I just find it ridiculous whenever people suggest religion as a panacea for everything.


And then we switch forums. )

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Picspam meme!

Meme stole from [info]perivates on livejournal.

• Post ten pictures currently on your hard drive that you think are self-expressive.

• NO CAPTIONS!!! It must be like we're speaking with images and we have to interpret your visual language just like we have to interpret your words.

• They must ALREADY be on your hard drive - no googling or flickr! They have to have been saved to your folders sometime in the past. They must be something you've saved there because it resonated with you for some reason.

• You do NOT have to answer any questions about any of your pictures if you don't want to. You can make them as mysterious as you like. Or you can explain them away as much as you like.

Whoops. I had to remove all the photos that I'd taken myself since they didn't fit the second bullet point! And it was very hard not to just fill it up with pretty boy pics. )

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Rape is not the norm.

Rape is not the norm. There is no reason to assume that a fic chosen at random will contain rape or something else triggery.

When people say that you shouldn't read fic that has no warnings on it because it might contain rape/other triggers, what they're in effect saying is that writing fic about rape is perfectly normal and a standard plot device/twist.

No. It's not. There is no way that it's reasonable to say that writing about rape/child abuse/incest is so common that people should think it's the norm and need to take especial care to avoid it.

The current stats are 1 in 3 women will encounter some form of sexual assault during their lifetime. I have no stats like that for fanfic but common sense would seem to imply that all the gen fic and non-triggery fic should outnumber the fics that fall into niches of rape, incest, underage or whatever else can make people flinch.

And even if a third of all fics written do actually involve rape? That's still less than half. That's still not enough to tell readers that it's their responsibility to e-mail the author and ask if the fic contains rape.

Rape is not the norm and people shouldn't have to treat the process of reading fic as if it is.

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Project I Heart iJay

Taken from [info]bridgetmkennitt:

"With all the buzz filling the air about DW, I wanted to do something that was wholly based on IJ. InsaneJournal is a small community. I liken it in my head to living in Hawaii with the rest of the world (LJ) just a hop, skip, and a jump away. I love my little home. So I came up with a project for me to show that support.

What is it? I plan to comment more on artwork, on vids, on fics, on meta that are posted on IJ*. I'll post more in asylums (a definite do!) since asylums so rarely get love here. I'll keep track of all this on a post so I can see how much I've done, and how much more I need to do. I'm one person, but it's something that is completely in my power to do.

This isn't a negative post about LJ or DW. This isn't a post calling people to arms (though if anyone else wants to comment and post more in asylums, I'm not going to complain *g*). This is just me doing this because I want to. Because I can. (And really, this just gives me more excuses to use my icons. How can I resist!)"


Comments made on my flist won't count, though since there are only two people who post on my flist, that isn't such a big sacrifice. XD Now to start commenting. First up, [info]scans_daily is getting friended. Then I'm going to start doing interest searches and friending new comms to comment on those.

Hey, guess what, iJay?

I HEART YOU!

Maybe I should make I heart iJay icons while I'm at it.

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put your money where your heart is (on the night stand)

I just caved and bought myself Permanent Extra Userpics. It's only ten extra dollars, and I heart iJay. I really, really do. And when I love companies or products, I want to throw money at them to encourage them to keep going down the right path. It's like the opposite of a boycott!

And as long as we're talking iJay -- I want to smack everyone who ditches iJay for Dreamwidth. I can get ditching eljay if you disapprove of their policies or the way they handle customer relations or whatever but iJay? Hell, Squeaky's consistently gone out of his way to make fandom feel comfortable here, he works incredibly hard on fixing issues whenever they pop up, he has a TWITTER he posts on whenever something goes wrong or iJay has planned maintenance ...

I'm willing to accept that some people can't handle iJay because the asylum theme is triggering for them. But if you've already been on iJay and you're ditching it for Dreamwidth because that's where all the 'cool kids' are? EW. I hated people like that in high school. It's so mindless -- everyone listens to the same music, watches the same movies and frequents the same clubs. If I disliked group think as a teen, believe me, I'm not any more likely to like mob think now in so-called adults.

There's nothing wrong with iJay for it to deserve to get ditched. Wanting to flit over to the next new thing is just flatout shallow. I'm the girl who holds on to fandoms for a long time, whose best friends are still the first real friends she made and who refuses to get rid of her Just William books because she still likes them. Get it? It's loyalty. If someone treats you well or a company is giving you what you want, why switch? [info]squeaky's been amazing. I think he deserves better than to be abandoned like this.

In cooler news, I have a Spiderman bedsheets.

And this is a Placebo icon that I'm using because I love Placeco and seeing this icon makes me happy.

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Happy Birthday, White Rain!

For your birthday, you get a personal soundtrack, courtesy of moi! Dedicated to White Rain, fanficcer, RPer, icon artist, fangirl, political activist, fandom activist and as always, my Ficcer in Crime.



Song list, lyrics and commentary under the cut. )

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A Public Apology To Everyone Who Recced Wicked

Remember when you guys were trying to get me into Wicked? And I refused to take any interest in because I'd read the book and found it incredibly boring and refused to believe that the musical would be any good? And you sent me the soundtrack, insisted that I listen to 'Popular', and I told you it was cute but not really my style and thus dismissed the entire musical soundtrack and didn't bother listening to the rest of it?

I am SUCH an idiot. I really and totally am. I saw the musical in London and it is fantastic. A thousand times better than the book, easily. I'm listening obsessively to Defying Gravity, For Good, Not That Girl and What Is This Feeling. I've downloaded a video recording of the London musical, and have been playing it on repeat for the last six hours. I have fifteen Wicked icons on my insanejournal account.

Consider me converted and absolutely, abjectly apologetic that I didn't listen to you guys when you told me that the Wicked musical is just about the best thing ever. Legally Blonde: The Musical is still my musical of choice but Wicked's a really close second.

Summary of post: Wicked rocks. You guys were right. I was wrong. I apologize x 1000 for not having listened all those years ago when you tried to get me into it. And I desperately need to read Glinda/Elphie fic now.

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Take Back The Night (this is MY night)

When I was younger, I used to be scared of the dark.

By younger, I don't mean five or six. I mean thirteen, fifteen -- that sort of younger. I used to be scared of the dark because I have an overactive imagination. What I can't see, I populate with horrors. Zombies, vampires, haunts and ghouls lurked in every corner, ready to snatch up me if I let my guard down.

Then I grew older and a new danger was added: Rapists.

Take Back The Night, the classic edition, usually has a parade/rally at the end, where people march in a long column, carrying candles. The idea is that there's safety in numbers and so the girls carrying the candles can march into the night with no fear, reclaiming it as a space for them and refusing to believe that the night is only safe to walk in if you're a white, cisgendered, heterosexual male.

Today, I did a Take Back The Night march of my own. I didn't mean it to be one when I started out. I just wanted to get some exercise, so I walked 7km to my cousin's house, chatted with her for a little, then refused her offer to give me a lift so that I could get more exercise by walking back. As I walked back, it started to get dark. I'd left my house at 7:47PM. Now it was past 9PM, and I was walking down the same street where my father had been followed by three men and had racist insults thrown at him.

I was walking alone, in the dark, in the same country where my teenage, female cousins were followed home by racist idiots who threw rocks at them while yelling insults. The same country where I'd seen a small East Asian girl get trapped in a corner of the bus by some Austrian man, while right next to him, a soldier in full uniform sat and did nothing. The same country where on the way to my cousin's house, just an hour ago, I had a man yell something at me from the window of a moving van.

I was alone, it was dark, and it was definitely hostile territory.

I had my cellphone on me. I could've called my mother and asked for a lift home. Considering the terrain, my parents would've been glad to oblige. I could've waited at a bus station, taken the bus, and my parents would've been none the wiser. Both of those would've been safe moves to make. Smart moves to make.

Instead, I turned my MP3 player onto repeat 1, kept 'Defying Gravity' from the Wicked soundtrack playing, and walked home defiantly. My parents first moved to Austria when I was 5. I went to a German kindergarten. I speak German. I buy groceries here. My parents pay rent for the house we live in. We contribute to the Austrian economy.

I have just as much right to walk the streets as any Austrian does. I have just as much right to walk the streets unmolested for the color of my skin, my eyes, my hair, the accent in my words or the rainbow band on my wrist. The streets were not built for the exclusive use by men. The concrete has no impressions in it that say 'both genders by day, men only by night'. Why should I have to only walk outside safely alone during daylight hours? The night is mine, and the streets are mine as much as they are yours.

I have the right to walk the streets at night if I chose and tonight, I chose to exercise that right. I flinched when people went by me on bikes, and my hands curled into fists with no conscious instruction from my mind. When I saw a man walking in front of me and realized I was catching up to him, I chose to keep walking instead of crossing to the other side of the street, even though I could tell by the way his steps slanted that he was drunk. I overtook him and walked on, expecting any moment to feel him throw his cigarette against my back.

He didn't. I kept walking.

And now, I am safely home, tired but exulted by the knowledge that for an hour and a half, the streets of Austria were mine by moonlight, in the night, in the darkness. This is the part of my post where I'd normally be encouraging you to follow my lead. I won't -- not for this. I did something reckless, acting out of a sense of how I wanted the world to be instead of how it is. I can't tell you to do this, to walk out into the night and assert your right to do so with no more fear than a member of the ruling class, because it could get you hurt. It could get you beaten up, insulted, raped, spat at, or killed, depending on where you live and how poorly you fit their idea of power looks like.

If I thought it would change anything to tell you to do what I did, to walk freely in the night time, I'd tell you to do it. But women aren't going to take to the streets en masse to make the point that the streets belong to them as well, and telling you, alone, to go out and reclaim the night would be telling you to be a target. I won't do that.

But I will say that if you do? You will feel powerful. You will have taken for yourself the hours that society insists are reserved for those with power; you will have taken their power and proven that their power is your power, and there is no reason why you should not have that power too.

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Back from Nice!

Nice was fantastic. I heart France and Greece in general, and Nice has good memories for me. Some of the highlights of the trip were:


  • trying beef tartare for the first time (didn't like it, but hey, new experience!)
  • getting to have a hotel room all to my own with my parents next to me
  • finding sea glass and collecting it (read out it in one of the Chicken Soup For The Teenager's Soul book)
  • buying leather wristlets that you lace up
  • buying a chicken for a homeless woman and her kid
  • seeing a whole pig roasting in a square (HUGE pig, big as me!)
  • a really nice French guy stopping to offer directions just because he saw me about to open up a map
  • motorbikes EVERYWHERE! I was in some sort of heaven, I swear.


I have tons of photos and shall be posting them on dA to save my Photobucket bandwidth and because Flickr has a limit on how many photos it'll let you upload with a free account. Boo.

Currently, I'm catching up on Amazon Fail, getting ready to celebrate the Sri Lankan New Year, and trying to write RP posts. Work tomorrow, was going to wear a sari, but am far too tired to do that now. It looks like I'm going to be using these to shop for English books/manga now.

So utterly tired. Going to finish the posts that I promised, then crash to -- OH CRAP, 11:30 already?! Okay, fuck finishing posts. Bed. Now.

I leave you with this thought -- if I step on your foot, you tell me it hurts, then my next moves are going to be to apologize for hurting you, and then move my damn foot. Just saying sorry isn't enough.

Oh. And this, mostly because of the cheesecake:



Now to bed.

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YGO music meme drabbles.

1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like.
2. Turn your music player on and turn it on random/shuffle.
3. Write a drabblet/ficlet related to each song that plays. You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble; you start when the song starts, and stop when it's over. No lingering afterward! No matter how whacked out your drabble is. :)
4. Do ten of these, then post them.

Not That Girl, Wicked Musical, Mai/Jounouchi, Yugi/Anzu. )

Popular, Wicked Musical, Rebecca & Mai. )

Nazi Halo, Jack Off Jill, Yami no Bakura gen. )

Part Of Your World, The Little Mermaid, Cure Mermaid & Harpie's Brother. )

Snakes, Voltaire, Yami no Bakura/Seto. )

One Girl Revolution, Legally Blonde soundtrack, Varon+Mai, Jounouchi+Mai. )

Meant To Live, Switchfoot, Ryuuji gen. )

A Guy Like You, Hunchback of Notre Dame, Jounouchi/Mai, Yugi+Jounouchi. )

if he tries anything, ani di franco, Mai/Isis. )

Head On Collision, New Found Glory, Ryuuji/Seto. )

Yellow Brick Road, Jack Off Jill, Leon gen. )

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Contest entries!


what is more exquisite?
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Rainbow of the Ocean
by =ficklegoddess on deviantART

Maybe I have some talents after all :P

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I can never ignore this meme.

Find a poem you love and post it.

I have gone out, a possessed witch,
haunting the black air, braver at night;
dreaming evil, I have done my hitch
over the plain houses, light by light:
lonely thing, twelve-fingered, out of mind.
A woman like that is not a woman, quite.
I have been her kind.

I have found the warm caves in the woods,
filled them with skillets, carvings, shelves,
closets, silks, innumerable goods;
fixed the suppers for the worms and the elves:
whining, rearranging the disaligned.
A woman like that is misunderstood.
I have been her kind.

I have ridden in your cart, driver,
waved my nude arms at villages going by,
learning the last bright routes, survivor
where your flames still bite my thigh
and my ribs crack where your wheels wind.
A woman like that is not ashamed to die.
I have been her kind.

-Anne Sexton

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Happy Sri Lankan Independence Day!

To celebrate Sri Lankan Independence Day, I'm offering to write people's names for them in Sinhala.



Above image is my name, written in Sinhala. If you want me to write your name in Sinhala, comment! Please spell your name correctly and next to it, in brackets, put how it's pronounced, since Sinhala has more vowels than English.

For example:

Fickle (Fick-el, rhymes with trick-hell)

And then I'll write your name and you can show it off. XD

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Micro-fics meme!

Who wrote 'em: [info]fickle aka [info]only_fiction

What it is: Rachel/Tobias, Animorphs. [used for thought speech]

What that means: Ten fics. Ten genres. Ten words or less.

Why you should try writing your own: It is so much harder than it looks. Really.

Why I'm crying on the inside: Because this really IS harder than it looks!

Other stuff I want to say: Want to see me do this for any other pairing other than the one I chose? Leave me a comment with the pairing and I'll do my best. I could use the writing exercise. XD Having actually written the meme results, NO WAY. Much too difficult to do multiple times. So first five comments only get to make requests.

Less than a hundred words of fic and I cut it anyway? )

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Be impressed!

[info]only_fiction. I now have a writing journal up on insanejournal, and spent most of today getting the layout customized to a form that I like. I think the basic look of it works well enough that I can use it for my personal journal as well, though obviously more cornflower blue-and-white instead of grey-black-green like my fiction journal is.

Header image comes from a doujinshi I own -- Ryuuji's very green eyes. XD And the text is from an Ani di Franco song.

Now to start transferring over fics! Specifically, Netherworld, since that's going to cross over the ff.net rating soon and require me to either start posting the chapters elsewhere or e-mail people the chapters individually.

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lalala

Test entry.

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Little Brother: READ IT NOW

Whatever you're doing right now, stop. Go read Little Brother instead.

Little Brother is the best book I've read all year. This would have more meaning if it wasn't the start of the year, so let me rephrase that. Little Brother might be the most awesome book that I could possibly read this year.

There's an excellent summary of the book here, so I'm not going to hash over the book. Instead, I'm going to give you bullet points as to WHY you should read it.


  • The author references our culture. Flashmobs, Linux distros, game systems being cheap but the games expensive, livejournal, Flickr, everything. And he gets it right! You've seen what happened when the media tried talking about Anonymous versus Scientology. This guy actually manages to create a believable 17-year-old narrator.
  • It's about Homeland Security and what happens when safety trumps freedom. The title's a homage to 'Big Brother' but unlike 1984, this book is set in our times. Modern times. It's much easier to get sucked into this book because the protagonist is our age and deals with our tech, instead of being an adult with a forbidden love affair.
  • On that note, the book deals with the generation gap and how adults are more likely to buy into the scare tactics of the media. But it doesn't present all adults as rigorously inflexible. There are good guys amongst the grown-ups, and bad guys amongst the kids, and the way that he manages to make moral ambiguity and self-righteousness a major theme of the novel is amazing.
  • Race issues! It's a bit of a throw away in that it's not a major theme of the book, but that's part of what makes the sudden discussion of them so fantastic to me. There's a quick convo between the protag and a friend of his about how the friend will suffer more if they're caught, and the protag acknowledges that yes, brown people have the scales balanced against them. It's a tiny little thing, not a major part of the book, but oh, how fantastic it is to se it acknowledged as a part of real life instead of glossed over or forgotten about.
  • Awesome female chars. There's not just the standard love interest and the best friend chick, but also female chars with authority, female chars who are bad guys, and female chars who rock the geek world. They're depicted as being as much a part of the world as the male protag is, and the author's Net-savvy enough to even have the protag be wary of one girl that IMs him because the protag knows how many guys like pretending to be girls online.
  • Neil Gaiman, Scott Westerfeld, Brian K Vaughn, and I love it. I fully intend on buying copies IRL and making my friends read them. Since most of you are lucky enough to not live near me, I'm instead devoting the entirety of this post to trying to convince you to read it.


You know what else is awesome? The author himself and his thoughts on ebooks and sharing books/music online. His explanation for why he gives his books away for free online is quoted below, because it's just said so well that any attempt on my part to sum it up would pale in comparison to his original words.

I recently saw Neil Gaiman give a talk at which someone asked him how he felt about piracy of his books. He said, "Hands up in the audience if you discovered your favorite writer for free -- because someone loaned you a copy, or because someone gave it to you? Now, hands up if you found your favorite writer by walking into a store and plunking down cash." Overwhelmingly, the audience said that they'd discovered their favorite writers for free, on a loan or as a gift. When it comes to my favorite writers, there's no boundaries: I'll buy every book they publish, just to own it (sometimes I buy two or three, to give away to friends who must read those books). I pay to see them live. I buy t-shirts with their book-covers on them. I'm a customer for life.

Neil went on to say that... )

Love him, read the book, and spread word of the book around as much as you can. This guy is one of us. He talks about our technology, he writes about our world, and he's good at it. He's a geek to the core, and one who doesn't back down from tackling politics head-on. I'd fangirl about it more, but I'm going to see if he's written anything else.

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Private Fic Yuletide

Snagged from [info]yamievandar, who snagged it from [info]misura who got it from [info]alighiera, who nicked it from [info]ariss_tenoh. Some of text has changed, but the basic point remains the same.

Her idea, is a one-sided private Yuletide, i.e. you get a story without having to write one in return. (This is a quote.) The rules are:

1. If you're on my FList, you get to play. If you're not on my FList but are reading this post, you also get to play.

2. You can request up to four different fandoms (or the same fandom four times, or whatever you want including crossovers as long as they are sensible i.e. do not require gigantic leaps of faith and suspension of doubt, reality and canon to work) - but please give me at least a character or pairing to work with and, if you wish, a phrase, setting, theme or whatever you want me to put in the story.

3. If there's something you absolutely want (or don't want) to see in your story, tell me.

4. You don't need to limit your requests to the fandoms I have listed below. Feel free to request any fandom at all, but keep in mind that the odds of me picking up a book are a lot better than the odds of me acquiring six seasons of a TV-show or a complete anime-series.

5. I will earnestly try to write at least one of your requests before the end of 2008.

The deadline for making requests is December 28th. The deadline for me to finish writing at least one of your requests is December 31st next year. My inner procrastinator likes this part quite a lot.

Also, if I owe anyone a GiftFic: I have probably forgotten what it is and lost the bunny for it. You can request it again here and it will be counted as part of the Yuletide thing. You can, of course, request something entirely different if you want. [info]brownie_utonium and [info]ceresi, you are exempted from this since I'm still working on your pieces.

My personal edit: If I can't write something, I'll graphic something up instead. Icons, banner, dolls, whatever. ♥ So you'll get SOMETHING, at least.

current fandoms! )

My preference tends to be for writing slash, but I'm fine with het and femmeslash too! One caveat: No requests for explicit sex scenes, please. I tend to suck at those, and not in the fun way. ♥ Fade to black is Fickle's friend!

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Icon set of heroic chars/groups!

YAY ICONS! I woke up one morning with inspiration for an icon set floating about in my head, then spent most of a day working on them. Cue a set of 85 '[name] is my hero' icons. XD The icons are of various characters/groups from DC, Marvel, Star Wars, Star Trek and Misc. Characters featured included members of the Batfamily, the Supes, X-Men, Teen Titans, Outsiders, Green Lanterns, Spidey-world and many more.

And this gave me a chance to break in my new icon journal in ijay, [info]iconic!

Samples:

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004


Choose your hero/ine here at [info]iconic!

And if you can think of a hero/ine that'd icon well (as in, has a very recognizable symbol), then go ahead and suggest it via comments. I'm thinking of making an Avatar set and maybe a Naruto set, with the village and element signs, though that'd obviously be more for groups than for individual chars, alas.

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Fic Comm Rec: Sick Fic Fest

[info]sickficfest is a comm that's centered around writing bad people doing very bad things.

Surely you can see why I'd be interested.

It's accepting prompts until the end of September, the prompts will be claimed during October and the actual fics will only be posted in February. How can I wait that long?!

If you don't have the time or patience to write, go submit prompts here anyway because I want to write and so far, there are only two fandoms that I could possibly write for. And I'm getting a little carried away with submitting prompts myself at the moment anyway.

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you have ten minutes or less to write a poem, then post it with this subject line

cybernetic future, wires through her veins
she feels the pulse of information in place of emotion
emo poetry and pro-ana make her suck her cheeks in
she regards herself in the mirror and camwhores
camera in her eyes and the click of her eyelids
the perfect old-style camera covers

her smile is black and every tooth is lettered
her canine teeth are enter keys and her tongue
is made of cables braided together

she is the perfect girl for this digital world
she is a creation of her own self-loathing

humanity was never worth it
humans never deserved her

now she is unique

and tomorrow
there will be a million more like her
marching down the assembly line
demanding android rights

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ficklet, original

As with everything, she wants only the best, so when she decides to divorce her emotions from herself, she hires the most skilled lawyers she can find.

At $500 an hour, they don't tell her she's crazy. Why let the psychiatrists get their hands on her fortune if they can have it?

They draw up an agreement for her emotions and herself to sign, and pronounce the matter close once the two identical signatures mark the bottom of the page.

The first time PMS hits, she sues them for malpractice.

She wins millions, but is too busy crying to care.

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